did anyone remember my promised to keep posting the blog ?

well I lied..
everything seem stop to interest me anymore

just to let you know .

is it useful enough ?

it's not right to abandon something that you started...
so I thought i 'll give my blogging spirit another chance

well not much is happening in here from the last entry
Bored maybe but yet still going up and running

"Why I had to do something as useless as this ?”
one of student is my class wailed when she worked her thermocemistry problems
Which is something that I sadly had to agree
that is some useless thing, considering that she had already enlisted in Communication Arts dept is some reputable universities.
But eventually when I thought about it, isn't it all of us done many useless things in our life ? even I were doing it right now.
And then what is that useful things to do ?

guess i haven't got any clue on that one

more of ueto aya

Yesterday a friend of mine brought me his collection of DVDs. And one that stroke me the most is his collection of japanese music videos. One is Ueto aya's clips , isn't she one of dorama actress ( attention please ) ?

But her singing was not half bad
and the videos were amazing , and I captured the picture using Totem movie player in xubuntu 8.04.

Kim donghwa

Yesterday I bought another series of kim donghwa chicken soup for the soul graphics novel and like always the graphics were superbly great. It really catches the essence of chicken soup. But i thought i could make something like this . but first i need to find story simple enough to steal and tranfer it into graphics novel

Park

just some rough sketch of something in my mind

children books

 

 I felt mesmerize with some children book drawing, showing crowd of people in some place doing their bit of living. No matter what it's just plain beautiful . Well last night I try to draw something like that, and the result

are " absolute mess "

But I don't have anything significant in life to post right now , and for that you just have to bear it with me.

kiara

One of my former student said something in my friendster, " I got perfect 10 for chemistry in Unas ! "

I said "wow!", perfect 10 ! That's amazing !

She said she wanted to take Chemical Engineering  in Melbourne, food industry major. She had been a hard working girl since she was in high school. Rarely take a break in study or going to the mall. Her days filled with piano lesson , choir practice and studying. She even mentioned to me in some point if she would get bored if stay inactive for just a couple of minutes.

I just knew that someday she would become a succesfull person

Mobile posting

Well, currently i am using my wife mobile to post the entry. She have been using mentari since 11 years, the gprs rate are insanely cheap only 1 rp/ kb. We'll just see how this great service turns out.

lately everything is less colorful than ever
I know I had to quit  someday
Is it my time now  ?
I don't know ..
but the time is never been so perfect 

Attention please

well, since i had nothing to do this time I thought about watching some doramas. Well this one ( attention please ) was not my first choice. But while watching beautiful Ueto aya I kept thinking how much she looked like MetroTV news anchor Pritta Laura ( where is she now ? ) .

I luv pritta and now i luv Aya ..

block

Q: why hadn't you post anything yet?
A: should I ?
Q: yeah, you should
A : and why is that ?
Q : Isn't it me the one should ask the question?
A : and why ?
Q : you put me in Q section, dear Lord.

I felt something has blocked my mind, call it writer's block but No this is something bigger..
So like one wise guy said : if you had nothing to do, do nothing .
sssghh better luck tommorow

self portrait .. yet again

Yesterday I was at my edge of exhaustion. I know something had gone wrong with my health, for I constantly feeling fatigue and exhausted. Try to get some rest but eyes won't shut. Try to scratch the tablet and here's the result.

But suddenly my PC freeze itself.
Oh no, delayed write failed..
I know , the hard drive
Good Lord...
And I shut it down.
This morning I woke up and boot it up, well nothing seems to out of order.
I guess its simply tired

pen tablet

Since I got my hands on tablet ( stylus thing that supposedly replaced your mouse ), I got sore arm and bruised. Since I could only afford the cheapest thing ( terratec pen tablet ), you could grab it under $25. I try to draw some thing in Macromedia flash but this thing lack of sensitivity but works fine in adobe illustrator. I guess I need to rely more in adobe . If you ever wanted a pen tablet and the budget are tight go for Genius pen tablet ($ 48 ) or if you seriously needed this thing find the master : Wacom Intous . Its pricey but surely worth every cents. Meanwhile I have to compromise and persevere through this and more likely r I'll try find some solitude in my relationship with this terratec.

But I manage to create a blog header through this agonizing relationship . check it out here   

prints and pattern

Just some ugly pattern that i did this morning. 

I found an interesting site about orange style pattern here.  Quite nice and neat too

some certainty in life

The Surabaya city council decided to installed a timer in several traffic lights. Though it's working beautifully, sometimes seeing an enormous amount of seconds I had to waste in traffic light were more than I can bear. This city is more crowded than ever, full with quick-witted emotionally sick people. Blaring their bike and cursing others ... I don't know when I gonna stop pretending I enjoy this city life.

orange and white combination

just a little graphics that I did this morning,

I just love the combination of orange and white. The two colors could provide passion and long lasting spirit. I was one of people who fall in love for orange. Surely she was one of my kind ...

Just saw room decor design by  Nate Berkus for Oprah   makes me wanted to go to interior design major in college, why can't I be more persistent back then ? Anyway it's just a great thing if somebody love what they were doing for living.

Today I'll be happy

After a long series of depression and frantic disorder, I think I'll just opt for happiness. Being happy , no question asked !

And the truth is I got a lot of things to be happy about.
I just wish this is not somekind of Icecream cones of life

Q: what is an ice cream cone ?
A: You know, Here is something sweet, something that melt in five minutes

I luv watching spongebob and friends and I think i love them a little bit too much ...
But yesterday as I watched them again, there were scene I just fell in love with ,  as Patrick asked mr.squidward carried his suitcase full of his belonging which is not surprisingly were rocks He said something like I drew above...  heehaw what a laugh and I think it's poignant

facing my fear

Yesterday run into an old friend of mine, and after long series of chit-chat he revealed that now he was into computer software business, owning his own software development team and a prestigious office. 

The thing that struck me the most is that he actually living my dreams. I dreamt that someday I would be able to ran my own business, but it seemed somehow I was distracted and moving in wrong direction along the way.

maybe I didn't have enough courage to face my own fear and become the person I wanted to be.

how would i describe my life lately ?
well the right word would be : subtle